so.. it has been ages since I updated my blog.. the last two posts were just my language investigation cus my friend wanted to have a look, izzit
i'm gonna write this here but not say it to anyone officially in case it never happens.. i'm definitely thinking of breaking up with ben. it's been too long and too much of a struggle emotionally to be his girlfriend. i get pushed around and don't really get anything out of the relationship anymore except someone to sleep beside on the weekends.. but i dont even enjoy being around him anymore. he takes no pride in his appearance and nowadays he just digusts me, really.. he's arrogant and obnoxious and everything i wish he wasn't so.. this should have been done sooner, really.
we're going on holiday for two weeks to tenerife, so this is what i have been waiting for. after the holiday, i will make my decision. and i really hope the holiday sucks, so that it's not as hard as it would be if it was great.
