found this on devart:

I can't take this anymore. I love you. I hate you. I want you by my side always. I never want to see you again. I miss you so much. You disgust me. You're in all my dreams. You make up my nightmares. My heart is yours. Don't look at me. I love you. Iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou. Get out of my head.