reasons

I only wear my retainer at night just because it hurts.
I use too much toothpaste because I like the way it burns.

I look away when you talk to me cos I feel guilty all the time.
There's nothing to be guilty for except knowing that you're mine.

I think of all the bad stuff when I'm feeling really down.
I'd rather sit all by myself when you're not around.

I bite my lip and make it bleed because I like the pain.
It's addictive just because it hurts, but that does not make me "insane".

I don't want you to pity me or hold me as I bawl.
I just wanted you to understand why I do it all.

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Been feeling a bit down lately, and I just wanted a different way of expressing how I feel.. I don't want people to think I'm an attention-seeker - sure, I love being the centre of attention, but I don't go around asking for it. So therefore when I'm genuinely upset I find it hard to talk to people because I feel like they'll just think I'm attention-seeking and that I'm pathetic and should go away.

Also, when I argue, I cry, so that's a bit shit too.


Peace.