woop

yes, guys, this is one of those crazy rare times where I blog because I'm happy!

don't get me wrong, I'm happier more often than this blog makes out but at the moment I am happy because I know something I wish I didn't and I'm excited that I know but I'm kinda sad cus I wish I didn't but it's awesome because it's awesome.

all I'mma say is: It's my birthday in 6 days! woohoo! i'm excited for my birthday, which is rare. it's been years since i was this excited.

i think recently my relationship with Ben has been a little lacking because of the linear pattern of day to day life: both of our birthdays are a week apart and they're just weeks away from christmas, so there are no events that happen throughout the year - especially during the summer. it's not that it gets boring, it's just that there is nothing to make an effort for. but now that the spark in the relationship has been renewed, I am excited for my birthday and spending christmas with Ben. ^^

also, i have found things to do that occupy me when Ben is doing other things, like playing games or doing homework or being at work. also, I have a lot of homework.. -_-

my eyes have been opened up to a new view of life and.. i've gotta say.. i'm loving it. :)

peace!
^ not joking.