My life has just taken a step in the other direction. I have found myself drifting away from people and towards others and I have found myself a new friend in Pete and some other people at school. I've connected more with Ben and his friends and drifted away pretty much completely with my best friend Kirsty. And it's not that I hate Kirsty because I absolutely do not but.. I'm thinking of just becoming more of a drifter than attached to a friendship group. I have friends in places dotted about school, like Maisie in history and Bronwyn in art, Ahsan and Maisie again in English Language and I'm starting to talk to Toni more because I've re-joined choir. I've found a new friend in Felipe, who's totally into musical theatre and has the best singing voice for musical theatre I've ever heard!
I'm connecting more with people in my classes such as drama since now we're putting on Fame and I'm cast as Serena (meaning duet with Felipe yaaaay) and I.. well actually. Well I've always talked to the people in my German class and our week-long trip to Berlin was definitely a successful bonding activity, if anything. I've come to know year thirteen James through it and he's pretty nice.
Writing out this list, I've noticed that a lot of these people are guys... but with guys there's just more to talk about that's not to do with.. I dunno. Girly stuff. Kirsty never spoke to me about girly stuff, I dunno. I just feel like I need to move on and get on with being someone. Not that being friends with Kirsty meant I never was someone..
ARGH dskgjepkhmowjenfokemh
I just want to be someone else. Please.
It would just be so much easier if I could just go ahead and be someone who isn't me, cus being me sucks a lot of the time. I'm so illogical and have stupid opinions that actually are false cus they don't make sense, even though they're my opinion and no one else's so what I think is actually just yknow whatever blah blah blah.
What's happened to us, blog? Where did all this distance come from? Why can I not cross it and tell you everything? I feel like even you are judging me and preventing me from saying what I want to say. I just feel like the whole world is suffocating me even when my objective eyes can see that it's actually not.
BLAH.
I feel like I have so many feelings but I can't put my finger on any of them, like I'm feeling something that isn't actually there.
Sleep, please. Forever. Thanks. Bye.
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