fenech-soler

been obsessed with these guys recently - a friend showed me their music in a free one time and now i go home and listen to them all evening. xD

really really should do homework cus i have a lot. but i just cannot bring myself.. to.. do.. homework.. argh!

meaaannnnwhhiiillleeeee.. [insert same old shit about relationship here]

stopped caring, etc. will just sit here til im needed, etc. umm what else.. want things back the way they were, etc. hate you, love you, etc. routine, not love, just scared of letting go, etc. don't know who you are, im not your friend, etc. can't talk to you about anything, reason for this blog, etc. go away cus youre a nob, etc. please just love me like i love you, etc. i need you but you don't need me, etc.

i always thought true love was the need for a certain someone to be close to you.. the need to be loved in return perhaps? i thought it was more than a want. i mean, hey man, i want chocolate spread in my sandwiches tomorrow is not the same as i need chocolate spread in my sandwiches tomorrow. i want to spend the rest of my life with you is not the same as i need to spend the rest of my life with you.

just need to get out. be somewhere new. find some other place to settle down and stay there and totally forget about who i used to be.

was thinking about it in the shower. I don't want to spend the rest of my life with you! Ha! As if! I was imagining what it might be like. Realistically. Yes, everyone wants that idyllic life of a lovely house and a nice family, waking up next to "that person" *heartz* BLEH. what-ever. what we said is a whole bunch of bull.

you'll wake up early and do a bit of gaming before you go to work. you'll come home from work and say 'man, i need to relax' and shove on your headphones and do a bit of gaming. you'll come away from the computer when dinner's ready. you'll sit and have dinner at the computer, most probably. or in your computer chair. and then when dinner's done you'll go back to your gaming. she'll go to bed and you'll still be sat there at the screen. when it hits 1 or 2 in the morning, you'll decide to turn in and start over when you wake up.

BOOORRINNNGGG. a-nothankyou. goodbye. see ya.